Monday, August 24, 2009

HYC Update

Last week was a good one! Excellent weigh-in, several trips to the gym, and healthy food choices. I call that a success. :-)

Tonight I am struggling, though. I have been trolling the cabinets, poised for a binge. Chocolate is on my mind. But instead of giving in, I am fighting.

Let's hope I win the battle AND the war.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

A High... and Then Slacking

I'm not sure what it is... complacency, a bit of freedom after so much control, a celebration... but I notice that I sometimes let things slip after a win.

Yesterday I was down 4.4 pounds at my weigh in (YEA!!!!!) and was on Cloud 9 all day long. I went out to dinner and a movie, and ordered a sensible meal. But the portion was huge, and yet I proceeded to eat it all. This morning I was planning to go to Zumba class, but woke up with a bit of a headache from the wine at dinner and the late night, so I skipped class. It is like I allowed myself to slack off a bit because I had a good weigh in yesterday... which will not bode well for my weigh in this week if I do not pull back on the reins.

So I have put on my gym clothes and now plan to hit the gym to make up for the 500 calories that I didn't burn in Zumba class this morning. What I *really* want to do is take a nap, but I'll just go to bed at 8:00 p.m. with my daughter tonight instead. I need to make sure that my routine doesn't slip too much on the days when it can be done because I know that fall is almost upon us... and then come the holidays. And that time of year always draws me away from my routine and into a world of indulgence!

I have been on a downward trend with my weight for 14 months now, and the biggest thing that I have learned is that I still have to consciously choose to live healthfully every day. It is second nature to some degree because it is more of a habit now, but it is still not easy and it probably never will be.

But it IS worth it. I will be buying size 10 jeans during my next shopping outing, and it has been well over a decade since I did that. So even though I still struggle, and even though I wish I did not have to wage war on unhealthy habits every single day, I sure do like the results of my efforts.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Differences

I have some hard realities to face as I near my goal weight. The old body ain't what it used to be, folks.

When I was at this weight before (about 10 or 11 years ago), I still wanted to lose about 30 pounds off of my 5' 10" body, but I was comfortable enough with my figure to get naked with my boyfriend. But now, after having lost and gained and lost a large amount again, my body fat percentage is so much higher and my shape looks very different. It is hard to look in the mirror naked and not be freaked out!

So now my focus has changed. It is no longer to lose weight so that the scale reads a certain number or to wear a specific size of clothes, but instead I am focusing on losing body fat and gaining muscle. I am going for the "look okay naked" goal, and this is new for me because I have never specifically focused on changing my fat to lean ratio.

I dream of a tummy tuck, but I really want to wait until I have made my body look as good as can be without surgery... and then maintain that body for awhile... before I go for a visit with my surgeon. Since I also have a hernia that needs repair, I hope to combine these two procedures into one.

I guess I always thought that it was just a matter of losing weight, and that the rest would follow and I would feel great about myself. But since I have been on this weight loss roller coaster for so long, and so many times, my body has undergone some dramatic (and undesirable) composition changes. I wish I could urge every person who needs to lose weight to avoid the yo-yo dieting that I have experienced because now I am staring the ramifications right in the face whenever I see myself without my clothes on.

The silver lining in all of this is that I spend 98% of my day in clothes, and I look a hell of a lot better in them than I did this time last year! No one besides my daughter sees me naked, so all of this is my private shame and disappointment. But it sure makes me think twice about starting to date again!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Healthy You Challenge Update

Hello World!!! Once again, the summer has taken hold of me and I have been away for longer than I expected.

My daughter and I had a wonderful trip to Columbus just over a week ago, and we got to enjoy her first plane trip together. We also made a visit to the beautiful Columbus Zoo on the hottest day of the summer, and was I ever happy that I felt good enough to wear a pair of shorts!!! NSV, I say!!!

I have been keeping myself busy on the exercise front. Besides my standard three days a week at the gym with running/elliptical/weight machines, I am now doing Zumba for an hour on Saturday morning and yoga for an hour every other Friday night. Swimming is still on the agenda on off nights when the weather permits. And I do the stairs at work after lunch every day that I can.

I have also added more walking to my life. I park farther away from places, walk to more places than ever before, and find myself running up and down the stairs to get things all the time. Even though tonight is my night off, I am contemplating a visit with Jillian for her 30 Day Shred! Who would have thought?!?

Starting September 9th, I am adding another night of Zumba to the routine because I signed up for a Wednesday night class, too. My plan is to get in as much formal exercise as possible before the holidays descend and I find myself with other obligations (and lots of temptations).

I am now in the 180s with my weight, and I have not seen that number on the scale for 10 years! So this has been a good summer in terms of healthy life choices, and thus a success in the Healthy You Challenge.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Healthy You Challenge Update

Things have been going well these past few weeks! Last week I was down 2.5 pounds, which is one of the biggest drops in weight that I have had in recent months. It has been a bit frustrating dealing with the slowed weight loss, but frankly the gains that I have seen in areas not realted to the scale have been great and have kept me going.

One of those changes is Zumba class. I went to the first one on the recommendation of a friend, and it was great! I torched about 550 calories in the hour long class, but I felt REALLY uncoordinated because I did not know the moves. But when I went to the second one last weekend, I felt like I knew the moves better and that I did better overall in class. The quick gains I experienced were very encouraging!

Also, I have spent more time in a swimsuit this summer than any time since I was a child in grade school. How liberating!!! And fun! My daughter and I have had so many great bonding moments in the pool, and I have enjoyed watching her learn to swim this year with me by her side and not on the sidelines.

Yoga class was an excellent experience, too. I was a bit nervous that it would be disappointing since I have not taken any classes in over 10 years, but it seems that the other exercise that I do helped with my flexibility and muscle strength and thus I felt really powerful doing it.

Last night while I was at the gym I had to deal with a stupid woman taking on her cellphone while running on the track (seriously, phone to ear... not even with an earpiece!). She was weaving all over the lanes and was going in fits and starts with a inconsistent pace because she was so engaged in her conversation. I have seen this stupid woman do this before, but last night I almost started a fight with her about it. I am finding that I have less and less patience for people who are inconsiderate of other gym members, and whereas before I would have avoided confrontation with her because of my weight I am not hiding behind it anymore. If anyone has any suggestions (short of physical violence, LOL), I would love to hear them!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Shaking Things Up a Bit

I started shaking things up this last month, and I am feeling good about it!

On the food front, I have switched from tracking calories on The Daily Plate to counting points on Weight Watchers Online. I have also been trying to eat foods that keep me fuller for a longer period of time in order to keep from eating all day long.

On the exercise front, I have reduced my overall weekly running mileage while still running three days a week, but have added 30 minutes on the elliptical and 10 minutes on the weight machines to each workout. I also found a yoga class that I really like and am making provisions to be able to attend it weekly. I also started taking Zumba classes at the community center in town, and am signing up as a regular for the next session. Branching out like this has made me want to be even more active in my non-exercise time, so I find myself getting in the pool with my daughter as much as possible and doing activities with lots of walking and doing the stairs at work during my lunch break (I am now doing 13 floors down and then back up in about 8 minutes).

I have wanted to get back into yoga since I stopped taking classes about 11 years ago, and I am thrilled that I have found an instructor that inspires me again. And Zumba... well, that is just plain fun! My second class was even better than my first, and I felt like I got more of the steps down. But honestly, even when I had no idea what I was doing, I just danced to my own thing and kept moving and had a great time.

I am seeing big changes in my body now. Muscles are coming out in my legs, and I am generally slimmer at this weight than I have been at other times at this same weight. I wet shopping today and bought tops in a Medium because the Large was just too big, and am ready to buy some Size 10 jeans. I still have quite a ways to go, but now the last 28 pounds seems doable and I am enjoying the way that I feel now as I keep moving forward in my weight loss journey.

It was just over a year ago that I made changes to lose the weight for good, and I shook things up pretty fiercely then. So now I am shaking them up again, continuing the annual cycle of improvement and change that I have established for myself these last two summers. And it feels good!