Tuesday, August 9, 2011


Yes, I am alive. I feel like I am peeking out from behind a curtain, like I have been playing Hide and Seek with myself.

Things have been good. So good that I have just been living my life and not focusing on my weight loss and fitness journey. That is not good, but I am accepting the trade-off for now because exploring a new relationship takes a lot of my time!

On Saturday we will celebrate our "three month anniversary". Yep, it is still so new and fun that things like that count. The summer has been great as we have gotten to know each other and explored what there is to see and do with a new partner in crime. but this has been VERY scary on a personal level. I have exposed myself and my issues and my insecurities in a way that I have never done before. And I have had to hold myself back from running away from him more times than I care to admit to myself.

I am sure that my weight is up, maybe 7 pounds from my post-surgery low. All of the beer and the wine and the meals out have added up, and the nights spent snuggling on the couch with a movie or sleeping in late (REALLY LATE) have decreased my activity level. But it was worth it, and I am getting back on track.

I was spot on with my eating today, went to the personal trainer for strength training, and walked two miles at lunch. I am also starting to train for a half marathon this week (oh please let me find the time for it and actually do it). I like being thin and healthy, and I want to be thinner and fitter, so I know what I must do.

If all of the hard work of losing weight prepared me for this, it was all worth it. :-)