Saturday, November 15, 2014

Mixing Things Up

Where has the last two months gone? The good news is that they have been predominantly good months, barring a family relationship termination almost three months ago. It is sad that it is most often the people closest to you who betray your trust, and even sadder when it is a parent. 

On the positive side, my DD and I had a fabulous trip to enjoy the fall colors in Maine. We enjoyed our Halloween immensely, complete with our annual haunted house visit. And I joined a new gym! 

I chose this one for several reasons: Cost, proximity to home, clientele, and classes that fit my schedule as a working single mother. I have taken 6 classes in the first month of my membership (3 Spin classes, 2 Corebar/Pilioxing Classes, and 1 class for lower body toning called Tighter Assets). 

I love the a Spin classes, and that is surprising to me! Each instructor is different, so some have focused on strengthening and some on intervals. And I also love the Corebar/Piloxing classes. Very high energy and challenging.

The Tighter Assets class was a big challenge for me, and not in a good way. After all of my abdominal surgeries, two of which cut me from breastbone to pubic bone and all the way through my muscles, I have poor core strength. I also have had two hernia surgeries due to incisional hernias from the two veggies, so I am cautious about hurting myself and causing anothe hernia. The Tighter Assets class made me feel uncomfortable, but the instructor was the real issue because she was barking at people with a tinge of meanness about their form or not trying hard enough. I had to modify some of the balance moves, and she made me feel bad about that. That is not something I want in a group clas, so I may try it with another instructor once I am in a bit better shape in terms of balance.

All in all, the classes have been and I have enjoyed branching out! I have met some nice people, I feel like part of "something", and I have challenged myself in new ways.  And that is a good thing!

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Pizza Victories & Running Clubs

Yes, they are totally unrelated but both a part of my week. And I consider both to be victories, actually.

I had a rough weekend for many reasons. It was very emotional, and I found myself without any appetite on Sunday. And also without any motivation to grocery shop. So, when my daughter arrived home from her dad's house on Sunday night, I had nothing to feed her for dinner. Seeing as I was already in my jammies for the night, I decide to order in. Which, in my house at least, means pizza. Good pizza. Giordano's stuffed cheese pizza, to be exact. TRIGGER FOOD.

I was going to go for the all or nothing mentality meal and just shove in as much as I could do that the temptation would be gone the next day and I could 'start fresh', but then I found myself full after two slices. I calculated my points and realized that I could actually have another slice and still be within my points for the day, but I didn't want one more.  What?!?!?!?

The next day, I still had enough pizza to eat for dinner with my child, so I used my points wisely during the day, and had two pieces of stuffed pizza for dinner. All within my target for the day.  And I was happy!  Who knew?

That was a major victory for me... A victory in eating like a 'normal' person and not one in a diet or binge mentality.

Now for the running club. I have a friend who had been encouraging me to join a local running club, which I have been saying I was going to do for almost a year now.  Last week I FINALLY made my way into the store that sponsors it and asked for details, but did not go that week. This week I set myself up to go by asking my daughter to see if she could arrange for some friends to meet her at the library during the time of the run, since the club meets across the street from our public library. And then I forgot about it.

My daughter, however, did not.

Tuesday she told me that she had two friends meeting her at the librRy the next night. And I was trapped into colliding through!!! So I went last night to join the 'beginners' running club since it had been so long since I ran, and ended up joining them on their Week 9 of 9 (graduation) run! We ran 3.04 miles with 2 minutes of running interspersed with 30 seconds of running. We did this for 40 minutes, and I made it! I was exhausted, but I finished!

And I felt great. Onward to next week!

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Just Keep Swimming

Down 1.6 this week, for a total of 13.4 since I started WW again. I have been counting points for a couple of weeks now since I have been going out a lot and indulging in foods not on the Simply Filling list. Obviously both techniques work for me.

I had a slip last night, though. Kept it at a slip instead of a slide, though, because eating all that junk did not make me feel good at all and, frankly, it did not taste all that good anyway.

I am off for a four mile walk with my boyfriend in a few minutes. A great way to kick off a new week on the right foot!

Monday, August 25, 2014

Three Weeks In

As I knew it would, my weight loss slooooooowed down this week and I was only down 0.4 pounds. Which is actually fine since I was out Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and finished up Sunday with wine at my BFs house. My loss thus far is 11.8 pounds in 3 weeks, which is a great start.

And then there was today. My daughter starts 7th Grade tomorrow, and we historically have a day of fun on the last day of summer vacation. This year she chose lunch at The Cheesecake Factory because she is currently obsessed with Oreo cookie cheesecake. I decided that I wanted to eat cheesecake, too, so I skipped breakfast (which I never do) and ordered what I wanted at lunch. The Skinnylicious Chopped Salad was delicious, as was the slice of Dulce de Leche Caramel cheesecake. Truth be told, though, I started to feel unwell by the time I was finishing the slice. I am not used to all of that sugar and fat, and I felt pretty gross and needed a nap after it.

That meal alone was 5 points over my daily point target. Wow. And this I will be having tea for dinner lol.

I love the fact that I could turn to counting points instead of Simply Filling for the day, which I did, and that I could make that food decision today with no guilt.

It's time for me to step it up on the exercise front now, so that is my goal for next week.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Didn't Even Realize It

After my WW Meeting on Saturday, I became a grumpy human being. I was irked because my boyfriend 'disinvited' me to the Arlington Million in favor of his buddy since the only other woman in the group bowed out. I felt alone because my soon-to-be teenager chose to hang out in her room by herself and text with her friends after their afternoon gathering in the park.  I was disappointed because my planned outing to Greektown was cancelled. Everything rubbed me the wrong way, all day long.

I was crabby all the way into the next day, until mid afternoon Sunday.  Mopey and sullen. Short-tempered.  Not a place I like to be.

I didn't realize 'it' until Monday evening, though.  I didn't realize that I never once thought of my usual soothing mechanism.  That I never felt compelled to eat 'bad' food or drink copious amounts of wine.  It just never entered my sphere of possibilities.  I did, however, go for a brief run outside for the first time in, well, I don't even know. 

I didn't realize that I broke out of my stern until my mood had lifted, and then I was even happier to find the mood gone with no setback on my goals.  

Good change.

Saturday, August 16, 2014


Another successful week on Simply Filling... down an additional 3.6 pounds, for a total of 11.4 pounds since rejoining! And I can feel it in my body. I still want to lose 30 to 40 more pounds and get into the middle of my Weight Watchers weight range, but at least there has been progress and it is making me excited to stay on plan.

One big thing that I have been working on is my 'perfectionism' mindset. I am allowing myself some unplanned deviations, and also saving my weekly allowance for the evenings that I spend with my boyfriend because I know that is when I will indulge in shared meals and wine.

As for exercise, I have been walking for 30 minutes at lunch each day and then eating lunch while I work. The company parking lot is my friend now, and I have a route that I take each day. I play music and think and get some stress out, and I can't wait to get out there each day. When it was raining one day last week, I forged a path in the covered parking area and did my 30 minutes there... I am not interested in making excuses for why I cannot walk.

Simply Filling is the right choice for me now. I am staying away from sweets except for fruit because I know that is a trigger for me, but am eating some reduced fat bread which feels like a treat to me after staying away from it for so long.  My diet is mainly whole, real foods, and I love my fresh fruit snacks each day. A good balance for me.

One of the reasons that I decided to join WW almost two weeks ago was because I started birth control pills for the first time in 25 years (the mini-pill, since I have a genetic disorder that makes me hypercoagulable and thus cannot take anything with estrogen due to clotting issues), and I refused to be one of those people I was reading about who gained ten pounds when they started on the pill. Enough is enough.  The fact that this loss of 11+ pounds coincided with starting that medication makes me extra happy, and also shows me that nothing predestines us to gain weight. After taking upwards of 90mg of Prednisone each day for five years, I know that one can overcome any gain that medicine (and Cushings Disease) might bring.

The challenge for me becomes consistency once the losses slow down . Consistency during the plateaus, and even through weeks where I may gain. One thing that I like about our WW leader, Ann, is that she always asks " Do you feel like you can keep doing this?"when someone has a milestone or good loss.  And that really is the key to long term success.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Courtesy Weigh-In

I attended a Saturday morning Weight Watchers meeting with my friend today but, since my first meeting was last Sunday and this still technically part of the same WW week, my weigh-in could not be logged into my account and was considered a 'courtesy' to see how I was doing this week since I cannot make tomorrow morning's meeting. Fine by me, since it showed a 7.8 pound loss since last weekend! 

That's big, but my first week always tends to be a largish loss. Results Not Typical, I know, and there was definitely some water weight there since AF started  this week. But it was still motivating to see the drop and know that the Simply Filling plan is both a good fit with my food habits AND showing results for my body.

I am going to stick with it for another week because this one felt good.

Saturday, August 2, 2014


I seem to be in a down-up-down pattern, with little progress after the initial 6 pounds I lost. Not that I am surprised by this since I have very regimented 'diet' days followed by a veritable four day weekend (Thursday is the new Friday for me) where I overindulge in wine and meals out. And often sweets when I arrive home. All the walking and exercise at lunch that I have been doing just can't counterbalance that!

So back to Weight Watchers meeting I go, starting tomorrow morning. I know it works for me, and so could use the anchoring right now.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Healthy Relationships

I love Sunday mornings when the weather is nice. Why? Because my BF and I (along with DD on weekends that she is with me) take ourselves out to a park near his house with a great 1+ mile per lap walking/biking path. 

Today we started the morning with a 5.11 mile walk. Not only does it keep us active, but we have over an hour and a half to talk and catch up.  He is the first BF I have had that is interested in doing active things like this with me, and I really enjoy this healthy part of our relationship.

Saturday, June 28, 2014


63 minutes on the Arc Trainer today made these two things happen:

I wanted to slack off and skip the gym today after a late night out, but knew I would feel better after I finished a workout.  I was right!

Friday, June 27, 2014

Weekly Weigh In

After a solid week of daily workouts (minimum 25 minutes/maximum 60 minutes), I was down 4.8 pounds this morning. A kick start that gives me incentive to make it another solid week.

I went out with friends last night for a delicious dinner, complete with wine, and still had a great loss.  I can make it all work when I focus. I know that my big down fall is sugar. When I eat it I want more and more, and the downward spiral begins, often leading to a binge. Now that I have stayed away from it for almost three weeks, it is so much easier for me to just say no beforehand and walk away.

Off to my typical Greek yogurt and berries, hard boiled eggs, and salad with grilled chicken day. Tonight is date night with the BF, so I'll be saving up some calories and squeezing in a lunchtime workout at the Fitness Center in my office to prepare for it

Here's to another great week!

Tuesday, June 24, 2014


As in "slow as".  That is what it feels like watching the scale decline.  Granted, I weighed in for the first time in a looooooooooooooooooooong time just last Friday, but it feels like I should have lost at LEAST ten pounds by now!!!

Of course I am joking about that kind of unrealistic expectation, but I am working very hard to build better habits.  I have exercised 12 of the last 17 days for at least 20 minutes, and I have worked out hard as in a big, sweaty mess.  I have also increased all of the weights in my weight training during that period.  I am generally more active, taking the stairs at work and walking to and from the store while DD is at tutoring.

So why am I not at my goal weight yet?!?

It's the old truism, that the weight comes on so quickly yet leaves so slowly.  I think it is even worse now that I am in my mid 40s and staring peri-menopause in the face.  Now I am doing the hard work of just sticking to it, knowing that I am making the changes that will bring me a healthier weight and lifestyle, and having faith that my body will soon start to reflect those changes in a way that is visible to me.

Tick-Tock, let's get this transformation started already!

Saturday, June 21, 2014


It's a beautiful Saturday morning. I just returned from the gym where I did 45 minutes of cardio and tested out my new Wahoo TICKR heart rate monitor. So far Iove it! After I put it on, it automatically synced up with my iPhone via Bluetooth, and off I went.

It includes a Burn and Burst feature that tracks the time you spend in the fat burning range (Burn) and also in the short term range best for increasing cardio capacity (Burst). It determined my specific levels based on a quick test of my resting heart rate that I performed the night I received it.

During my 25 minute Arc Trainer workout, I tried to stay in the Burn fat burning range.

It felt much easier pace-wise than I am used to, and I could have sustained the pace for hours.

Then I did a 20 minute workout on the Elliptical (with moving arm handles) at a more typical pace.

It seems that I spend most of my typical workouts somewhere between the Burn and Burst ranges.  Definitely fun to try this feature.

The best part to me was the personalized calorie burn calculation. I never trust the numbers on the machines or even in apps like MFP. The Wahoo app not only tracks my workouts but, with the push of a button, uploads them automatically to MFP for me!  And that is just what I want.

So far, I am thrilled with the a Wahoo TICKR. It appears that they have a TICKR X coming out soon that will include some additional features like tracking while swimming and enchanced running analysis which I love to try, but this is where my money went so you will have to look elsewhere for reviews of that one when it is available.

Off to a BBQ to further this great day!

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

7 of 10

I have worked out 7 of the last 10 days, and my body is tired.  Thus I made today a day of rest, and it feels good physically although I want to try out my new gadget.

I am using the Arc Trainer quite a bit and have been kicking my heart rate up pretty high, so I got myself one of these in order to monitor it a bit better and stay in the range where I want to be for fat burning.  And I can't wait to use it!

I have a streak going with my eating and drinking: I only drink when I am with the BF or out with friends, and I only indulge (in a restrained fashion) when I drink, so my weekdays are healthy and low cal a la the 17 Day Diet Plan. This is the third time I have followed it, and it makes my craving virtually disappear.

My meals are pretty routine: Greek yogurt  with berries for breakfast, big salad with grilled chicken for lunch, baked fish and veggies for dinner, and hard boiled eggs for a snack.  Other meals on nights out, and lots of water and tea in between it all.  It feels good.

Tomorrow night is my night out with the BF, and I am looking forward to some wine and a special meal.  He is a big support in my quest for a healthier weight and body composition, and thus I am hoping for a special yet goal-friendly meal together!

Once I get to try the new HRM, I'll let you know what I think. Until then, onward and downward (on the scale)!

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Disappearing Act

Life did a 180 for me this year.  New job, new relationship, new challenges.  And a resurfacing of some old challenges in the form of a weight gain.  The good and the disappointing.

I have been at my new job for two months now.  I work for a growing company in the top 15 of the Fortune 500, and save 2 hours a day on my commute.  I am slowly adjusting and trying to learn after being the go-to person at my old job.  It certainly is a transition.

The new relationship is 5 months old, with someone that I worked with 20 years ago.  What's old is new in a brand new way, since he was married with a toddler and I was fresh out of college at that time.

These changes have brought a double whammy shake-up in my life, and I must admit that I turned to my old friend food, partnered with great wine shared with the new man who is also a fan of the grape.  And I am heavier and more out of shape than I can remember being since 2010.  Not a good thing for the psyche.

After buying some new capri pants for summer last weekend, I called bullshit on myself and hopped back on the wagon.  Back to working out (5 days out of the last 7), and back to basics with food using MFP for tracking.  I have not stepped on the scale, but plan to do so on Friday after I have an additional good week under my belt.  I know life at a much lower weight and higher fitness level than I am at now, and frankly I like it much better.  I am going back to that place, but with the new life circumstances that I have that make me happy.

It is frustrating to think that I have to do this again, but I know for sure that I CAN do it because I HAVE done it.  And I want that again so I AM doing it.

And I'll be back here on a regular basis to keep my focus.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Enjoying the Here and Now

As long as I can remember, I have been an overthinker. I have often lived with my head in the future, dreaming of what might come, or churning events from my past and trying to make sense of it all.  Rarely did I feel firmly rooted in the present.

Not so this year. Things are unfolding in my life that make me want to stay in the here and now. I specifically do not want to overthink things or wish time away. I want the passion and excitement of the now to live on.

That's a beautiful, white hot place to be. I'm loving it.

Friday, January 17, 2014


I feel like the life lessons have been coming hard and fast for me this past year in the relationship area.

I have asked for what I wanted in a relationship and not received it. And I left.

I have received exactly what I thought I wanted, only to find out that it was not what I really wanted at all. And I left.

Now someone has entered into my life when I least expected it, showing me things that I have always wanted but never thought I would find. I have no idea how this will turn out, but I am interested in finding out.

2014 is feeling good so far.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

If You Want It

You've got to believe.

I have let everything important to me slip since Thanksgiving. Too much fun. Too many parties. Not enough discipline or desire.

But life brought someone back into my life after eighteen years and it is making me believe in my dreams again.  Even if I am a bit afraid to believe.

It's time to believe and achieve again.